This one is my favorite……………………………
This one is my favorite……………………………
Okay, tell me if you’ve heard this one. Girl is a runner and a gym rat. She decides to start a blog so she can share all about her adventures and along the way she managed to gain weight instead of maintain or lose. So she loses the weight and shares that on the blog. Then she gains it back and stops blogging. So have you heard of that one before?
My intentions were to be at least 20 lbs lighter by now. But as always I let excuses and a huge dose of laziness take over. It’s like I wanted to pretend it wasn’t THAT bad and if threw on some Spanx maybe no one would notice.
It’s incredibly awful. It’s frustrating and mentally tiring. I have no one to blame except myself.
At this point you may be asking…………what’s your point? Well, a couple of years ago after being called pregnant (when I was not) in a huge way (“Oh good your pregnant, I thought you had just gotten fat!” True story, it was said out loud to me) and I got pissed about it (a rant about it here) I said enough is enough and I gave myself 6 months to lose the weight. Well, here I am again. This time I know that when I lose it I’ll have to continue to fight for it. That’s my point.
Friday’s are weigh in day. I have to count calories, log them in and do the workouts. It truly has to be a lifestyle change. A mindset change as well. It’s not like I don’t know what to do or how to do it.
And also keep in mind that I’m not saying my way is the only way or the right way…..it’s just what works for me.
Till next time……….
My last post was about procrastination. Guess who hasn’t posted since then? Yep. Me. So so sad. It’s not that I don’t care but to some degree I just needed a break. Mentally.
I’m still here. Silent but still here. I’ve tossed around the idea of taking the site down but it doesn’t feel right. I love my little bit of Internet space.
I was reminded by one my sweet lovies, right after she discovered I had a website, that I’m a motivator. I motivate people. And it’s true. I love encouraging and motivating others to be the best version of themselves they can be. So sometimes you will see several large chunks of time between post and other times you’ll multiple post. It’s just part of it.
So if you’re reading this (and all my horrible grammar) then be patient with me. I haven’t left. I’m just taking my sweet precious time.
Till next time…………..
Hello, my name is Brandy, and I procrastinate. A few minutes becomes in a couple hours followed by later today which turns into first thing tomorrow morning and that becomes I’ll tell Siri to remind tonight and so on and so on. Which leads to today…………….80 days later. Ugh. Then today I came across this post………….Tomorrow – New and No Mistakes, YET!! It is written by my cousin (cousin by marriage actually) and it inspired me to stop procrastinating! It’s like she said/quoted, well actually L.M. Montgomery said “isn’t it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?”
Yes thank goodness!!
I also tend to overthink things to the point that by the time I get to where I need to be I’m mentally zapped. I’m also guilty of overplanning. I think that if I have the perfect schedule/plan I’ll be fool proof. Or if I do this, this and this then I can get this done. Instead, I’m exhausted mentally and physically. I like to think I dream big which can be good and bad. I dream so big sometimes I just do nothing because I don’t know where to start so I just don’t do. Sometimes (and I do me sometimes) it’s best to rip the bandaid off and just do. A cold cannonball jump will get you moving.
So here’s to a optimistic tomorrow! May my day be productive, enjoyable and perfectly planned.
Well, it’s never easy to confess. It humbling and it hurts. I think I would rather pull ten band-aids off at one time rather than confess. It won’t be a long post, but it is a needed post.
I’ve gained my weight back. I’m right back where I started.
After my dad passed away I self soothed by eating. I didn’t want to and I didn’t plan it. It just happened. The worst part………I get to wear my feelings, sins and anything else you can think of on my hips for the world to see.
So I have a plan. It’s pretty basic and simple……count calories and workout. So there you have it. Now that I’ve confessed my ways for the world I move forward. I look forward to seeing more often.
I am thankful for dirty dishes and a messy kitchen
I’m ever so thankful for a messy kitchen because that means I have a kitchen. I have some place to make messy. I’m thankful for dirty dishes and a messy kitchen because that means I have food to cook and enjoy. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly and place to lay my head at night. I’m safe and loved.
What are you thankful for?
I am thankful for patient people in my life.
I had a rough day today. It was stressful. I couldn’t find anything, nothing was where it should be and I was tired and snappy. Those around me could have lashed out at me for not being more organized or for being so snappy or for just being me but instead they gave me grace and space. I am so grateful for that. I’m going to bed and tomorrow will be a new day.
I am thankful for our home.
I have a thing for small houses. I love an older home with charm and history but I think our home is perfect for us. We’ve lived here for ten years now but our home is newer. When everyone we know was looking for bigger and better we found this small place and fell in love with it. I love the coziness of it. Sure I would love to have a designated office and a true laundry room instead of a laundry closet but truth be told what we have just works really well for us. A couple of years ago we added on a beautiful covered porch so my love for the home grew even more! I think a small home (if your responsible) keeps a person from owning too much stuff. If you do, then you’ll likely find yourself very cramped. Putting all that aside I love our house because it fits us. It gives us freedom to do other things rather than cleaning a bigger home, repairing a bigger home, supplying a bigger home. I love that our house is just minutes from everything we need. We live in a neighborhood where children can travel around safely. There’s only one entrance and all the streets are cul-de-sac. Another bonus is I get to walk out my front door and take off running and get in a comfortable 3 miles. No country roads to fight and I don’t have to drive anywhere to run if I don’t want to. It truly is just a perfect little place for us.
I also am so thankful that I have a roof over my head, a warm bed and place to call home.
And that’s why I am thankful for my home.
What are you thankful for?
I am thankful for the rain.
We have had a really dry summer and until two weekends ago, a dry fall. I mean, it’s not like have a garden that needs watering I just enjoy rain. Nothing treacherous or damaging. I’ve never been to Oregon but its that kind of weather I would imagine they have that I think I would like (notice a lot of “I thinks” in that statement). Anyways, I love sun and sand and all things beachy. I could move to Hawaii and live my days away there in the surf but I’m enjoy a good rain day (or two or three). I love how it washes everything clean even though there are mud puddles.
I love umbrellas and rain boots.
.I love running in the rain (a light rain). So when I have rainy days, I tend to be thankful.
What are you thankful for?
I am so thankful for early morning quiet times and the amazing sunrises that come with it. I love walking out my door and knowing that moments like this are just waiting for me.
It doesn’t matter where I go, the world normally has some type of view just waiting to be found. Sure I could skip taking pictures but it feels selfish not sharing this.
I personally think it’s the best time of the day. The world is still quiet and the sky comes in some amazing colors.
Most the time I catch these sunrises thanks to running other times it comes just from me sitting on my front porch while I read. I find that this time is so important to keep me in my happy place.
Sunsets are great but starting the day fresh, new and waiting to see what the day brings is the best part!
What are you grateful and thankful for?
P.S. You can find more sunrises and peeks into my quiet time on Instagram.
Can you believe it? Another month gone and another month here. November is my favorite because……
2. The food is just amazing…….
And the best part……………
My intentions for this month was to run a marathon my birthday weekend or close to it but I couldn’t find one I just absolutely loved. However I’ll be training my legs off for the Rock and Roll New Orleans Marathon. It’s not until February but the clock is ticking down so I’ve got to train or it will be ugly!
So it’s November and that means I’ll be sharing my list of what I’m thankful for until Thanksgiving. I’m thankful everyday but this month I like to share the love and gratitude with you guys (lucky you). Starting with today (since it is November 1 you know) I am grateful for my hubby. I know it sounds cheesy to go straight there but I have to say I really am grateful for him. He makes me laugh and he drives me crazy and supports me. We spend our whole lives trying to find “the one” and I’ve made it. We’re not perfect, he lets me be weird and he doesn’t try to change me. He loves me for me. He makes life, love and marriage easy. He never makes me feel like I have be some version of myself I’m not. If I have a bad day he knows to let me have space. If I fail at something he doesn’t make things worse by reiterating how I failed. I’m grateful for him everyday.
So what are you grateful for?
So this particular topic in which I will call Verbal Fasting is also known as “Not speaking negative.” I realize this is not so much a running/fitness topic but today it will be.
Negative talk is like a virus. It creeps it’s way into your life and has a way of whispering in your ear all the ugly, selfish, negative, self hating talk that it can:
*You’re not good enough.
*You’ll never be skinny.
*Only skinny people run.
*You’re too slow to run a marathon.
*You’ll never succeed.
*Other people do it better than you.
*You’ll fail just like everyone expects you too.
The list can go on and on but you get the point. I’m the world’s worst/best at negative talk. At some point in my life I allowed it to make its way into my life and it infected/affected me. Let me help you from making the same mistakes. It’s something I have to work on all the time or otherwise it tries to root itself back in to my life.
I came up with Verbal Fasting. Before speaking it, accepting it or reacting to the negativity, I stop, I pray about it and I move forward. What does this mean for you? Stop, think about it (pray about it) and decide, is it good, pure, true? Then, move forward. I refuse to accept the nagging little voice that tries to gum up my thoughts. Whether it be frustration, anxiety, anxiousness or just negative self talk, I step back and decide what I’m feeling and hearing is it really true (which normally it’s not), take control of it and then deny it. Squash the negative feeling or thought.
I call it verbal fasting because to me it’s like fasting for religious purposes. When someone fast, they do not go out and announce the fasting. Instead, they go into their quiet place to pray and meditate silently. Verbal fasting has the same concept. When a situation arises, instead of reacting or acting on the negative, stop, go into your quiet place and pray and meditate on it. Is it true? Is it right? Is it pure? Is it lovely? If not, then deny and refuse it.
It’s not easy and it’s hard to take hold of those negative thoughts and feelings but the outcome is a brighter, happier, and lovelier person; a stronger person physically and mentally; someone who knows they are good and worthy.
Now I do this by having quiet time in the morning to review what’s good and pure. I recommend positive messages (Rick Warren) or positive music such as KLove to play in the background while you work of a day. I work very hard to keep the negative at bay. It affects me. It rubs off on me and before you know it, I’m cranky and I have the “Meh” attitude. I don’t see the positive in a situation. I have a negative cloud hanging around me. Now I’m not saying you won’t have bad days. We all have a bad day from time to time, but a string of bad days is not good. Constantly feeling the need to put people in their place is not good. It’s not good for your soul or mind. Constantly thinking “I’ll never lose weight” leaves an anchor tied to your mindset. Deny it. Squash it. Declare that you will do better and be better. Instead of getting angry at someone, give them grace. Instead of escalating a situation can you defuse it by just giving a person grace? If you do will the situation end and everyone move on to a better outcome? I only bring this up because all of this affects the negative and positives in your life and in others lives as well.
So the next time the little voice whispers “You’ll never reach your goals” or “You’re not good enough”……deny it. Shout back, “I will and I am. I will reach my goals!! I am most certainly good enough!! I declare it and believe it!!”
Fitness and running is such a mental place. If we’re in a mental rut or bad spot then our health and fitness suffers. If we protect our minds and heart then it’s very possible that our health and fitness can soar to places you’ve never been before.
How do you protect and renew your mind?
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. – Philippians 4:8
It’s October. Let’s just let that sink in………
I find that as I get older every month I’m like “Oh, it’s already a new month.” Or “Crap, it’s half way through the month, so much to do!” When did I become this person?
So my blogging skills have been less than ideal lately. I’m still moving and cruising and getting things done but lately when I get home I’ve been not so blog ecstatic. Instead it’s tidy house, fix dinner, watch tv, go to bed. Super creative and inspiring. I know. I’ll be writing a book later on how to obtain and recreate these amazing and creative skills, stay tuned. All sarcastic undertones aside, I really have been working on my creative skills/hobbies. Sort of. I crochet a bit. I’ve been working up the motivation to do another quilt. I want a quilt that I can just throw on the bed or couch when I’m lounging or take with me when I go outside to read. I really do have a thing for blankets and quilts.
Actually anything that leads to comfy, snuggly time I’m game for. Hence my constant updating to this Pinterest board. Shameful I know. I always know when I’m tired (because sometimes you know you are but you try to just overlook it or ignore it and keep moving forward) when I’m out shopping. I find myself seriously queing in on the comfy clothes. Anything that is soft, little oversize and lounge worthy. Like I really need anymore of those style clothes! If I could go to work in my “comfy” clothes I would have an Ah-Mazing work wardrobe!
So lets talk running. Yes, I still do it. If you have to ask, I feel like I’m not doing it enough. IE. “Hey B, you still running?” versus “Hey B, look at you! Wow, still running huh?!” However, I may be talking to the person that is dumb enough to ask a woman if she’s pregnant (who ask that?!!? And if you do, STOP!). Anyways, I have a half marathon in 11 weeks and a marathon in 21 weeks. I have an app on my phone that reminds me in count down form. It’s great! Both are in New Orleans. I haven’t traveled much lately with running. I haven’t had any bucket list type cravings on any particular place/race. I mean, I’ve really ran the races I wanted to. Chicago, San Francisco, Philadelphia, New Orelans, Birmingham are places I really wanted to go. I guess Boston and New York are my two other must do races but right now that’s all I can think of.
My main goal is to get to where half marathon distance is second nature. Lose some weight (some plus some more!) and remain injury free.
So…..that’s about it. It’s my goal to work on being more present here as well. Carving out little sections of my day to do things that make me happy. With that being said, see you soon!!